Hypnotically hypnosis..

hey im here to write about one of my favourite band, ever(MUSE is still the best,ahahaha)~the SOAD...i simply cant get enuff of daron's guitar licks and solo..serj's deep-groggy-voice..shavo's cool bass strumming and john's aggressive drum beat...there's this one video from 2002 BIg Day Out in Aussie featuring them performing Psycho...at the end of the song,daron did his solo awesomeness-ly that can somehow make u tear,literally,tear~if u listen to it really carefully it's actually like a story been told in a guitar solo form...

i can listen to this a gazzilion time and still got goosebumps all over me...

p/s: aya i love this guitar solo part so muchas..and i want to dedicate it to u~

when im confused and sad~

i dont knw y,but i got this sudden mood swing.feeling extremely sad and confused. could it be sum psychological illness?i beg to differ..but it's extremely hurting me from the inside..so by all means,im turning myself to psychedelic mode tonite..goin all out for MUSE~

Muse - Fury

pls google for the lyrics as im uber-ly lazy to copy paste it..

however, the lyrics doesnt interest me that much as it's atheist oriented (matt bellamy's an atheist fyi)..but the melody+music composition+matt's falsetto+matt's guitar solo are superb..it makes me go ecstasy-high for hours.. been listening it re-play'd for the 35th time now, and still im deeply in trance..and guess what, it scaled down the sad+psycho+confused graft down to a tolerable level~ok..saya nk guling2 from one end of the bed to the other end while shaking my head vigorously like a wet dog..okbabai..

after so many days~

salam and a very goodmorning~

after not typing for so many days, i've decided to write something just to wipe off the stress of workloads. i dont really know what to write in fact im so stuck up with work now,i'm thinking to write anything about my work..hahahahaha..alright, am gonna write on what has been happening since the last few days..

a bunch of historical stuff happened within the last few days. most of it is on our relationship..

this is how i feel this few days..

I miss you by Incubus

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, Utopian dream.

You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said "I miss you"?

I see your picture.
I smell your skin on
The empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days,
But already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care,
And I miss you.

im so head over heels for u syg..i dont know how to put this into words, but bak kate u, lately i slalu rasa "terbang-terbang" , rasa macam my heart is trying to jump out of my rib cage...i love and miss u so much~

btw,im currently voice-calling my sayang Alia,updating my blog and typing a report on work.there u go..the ultimate multi-tasking.hahaha...

ok that's it for now..am gonna update more later as im at work and got heaps and heaps of work to do~huuuu...

P/s: i love u so much Alia~

Song of the day..woohoo~

there u go...this is how i feel today...enjoy..tuderaaaaaaaaaaaa...

Robin Thicke : Lost Without You

I'm lost without you

Can't help myself
How does it feel?
To know that I love ya baby
I'm lost without you
Can't help myself
How does it feel?
To know that I love ya baby

Tell me how you love me more
And how you think I'm sexy baby
But you don't want nobody else
You don't want this guy
You don't want that guy
You wanna touch yourself when you see me
Tell me how you love my body
And how I make you feel baby
You wanna roll with me
You wanna to hold with me
You wanna stay warm and get out of the cold with me
I just love to hear you say it
It makes a man feel good baby
Tell me you depend on me
I need to here it

I'm lost without you
Can't help myself
How does it feel?
To know that I love ya baby
I'm lost without you
Can't help myself
How does it feel?
To know that I love ya baby

Baby your the perfect shape
Baby your the perfect weight
Treat me like my birthday
I want it this way
I want it that way
I want it
Tell me you don't want me to stop
Tell me it would break your heart
But you love me and all my dirty
You wanna roll with me
You wanna to hold with me
You want to make fires and get norwegian wood with me
I just love to hear you say it
It makes a man feel good baby

I'm lost without you
Can't help myself
How does it feel?
To know that I love ya baby
I'm lost without you
Can't help myself
How does it feel?
To know that I love ya baby

Cause you will tell me every morning
oooohhh alright baby
ooooh yeah
oh baby
oh darlin
all right right

I'm lost without you
Can't help myself
How does it feel?
To know that I love ya baby
I'm lost without you
Can't help myself
How does it feel?
To know that I love ya baby

p/s: i *heart* you aya~

dont ever try to judge me dude, you dont know what i've been through..Cuz I've been there before and I can be there again~

Lately I've been dealin with haters and people sayin I'll never make it. But I'll just use it as fuel to my heart, to keep it beating. No.. I will never be the reason I'm not succeeding or will I ever sell out or settle less than I'm needing. because I've been there before and I can be there again. If I don't work for more it'll happen again. and if I'm down and hurt, i'll just stand up and walk away.

so Alia, and i quote,

"We'll walk this road together, through the storm or whatever weather, cold or warm. Just let you know that, you're not alone.. just tell me if you feel that you've been down the same road"

//im out//

p/s: gazing at the stars..trying to look for u dearest Alia~

the pick up line

As i browse through the girlfie's FB, i realised one thing.the 1st initial move of me on her. it was about 8 months ago, i added her up and she approved and the "picking-up" starts.LOL. i was at the verge of nervous breakdown (and i dont know y) when trying to send her a wall status. it was relatively an easy thing to do,but the experience was somehow different this time. it was so nerve-wrecking that it was like dropping the ATOM bomb on Hiroshima. all the calculations, predictions and multiple situation outcomes have to be evaluated.i also have to asses the situation, making back up plans and prepare all the smallest details. it was extensive eh?

and all that assessment, predictions, and multiple situation predictions comes out as:

"Fahmi RadzuanAlia Mohamad Ibrahim: Hi salam..hi do I know u frm sumwhere?"

gile lame...saya rase saya sungguh lame. what kinda pick-up line is that.even a 7 year old kid with a lack of social skills can say that. i dont know y,but i was so dumb-founded.

"man, i suck'd,big time for typing these words and send it to you as the first attempt to communicate with u."

and guess what??she didnt reply...yeah..this moron succeeded in not getting her favourable response.ahahahahaha..of coz la,with that kinda pick-up line, even dumbo the elephant pun tanak reply. then i waited for another month. more extensive plans need to be made to ensure success. then i came out with a brilliant one (i thought at that time it was brilliant. at par with Einstein's relativity theory,LOL). i choose my words very carefully,check and double check for grammar and un-cool mistakes. and then came out this;

Fahmi RadzuanAlia Mohamad Ibrahim: salam..hey there how's india

yup, i did my homework well..she replied..

Alia Mohamad IbrahimFahmi Radzuan: hye...india is okay today...bright n sunny as always ;)

hws malaysia? sume still dlm mood raye ke? hehe

and from there on, u can say it was smooth sailing. but if u guys need to know, the magic didnt happened just yet. the replies stop after a couple of wall status's. 7 months later baru la Cik Alia kite ni dpt menangkap yg saya suka kat dia, probly i didnt use the right broom to sweep her off her feet,hahahaha. and the rest is history.

betul la ckp org..kalau jodoh tak kemana..balik2 dia dtg jugak..let's not hope but keep on having faith. insya'Allah if it was meant to be..it'll be...

p/s: i love u Alia.

to hold and to stand your ground..

Early this morning was not totally all about the World Cup Finals. although, Paulie the satanic 'sotong kurita' did predict the outcome of the game,i still believe that it was all fluke. the best team just won the game this morning, end of story.

ok, but as i told earlier it is not only on the WC, it's also about some other more important stuff. it's about, how to hold your ground when the whole world is turning against you and telling you what you should do.

here's a fraction of it:

"u dont have any rights to judge my man or me myself here...we're still new, and we're still getting to knw each other.."

im so flattered on how you respond to it syg. later if you receive anything like this just disregard it. dont bother to entertain looneys a.k.a haters a.k.a some jealous-no good-being, ok syg. keep it mum and let them burn themselves in their own hatred flame. i love you no matter what....

p/s: no words can describe my love for u Alia~

Faith~

the following was sent to me by this amazing individual named Alia Mohamad Ibrahim:

suddenly i terpikir...if we take this in a positive way...
this might be one of the ways of God utk bagi kite
cinta yg suci & terpelihara :)
we're so far away, yet full of love...
just like u said b...lets not hope, but keep on having faith...
what we have might be impossible in people's eyes
but i knw, u knw...deep inside, its love...
and its true, and its pure...
and we knw...tht it's going to be more...
i love u fahmi...frm an innocent sincere heart...muahxoxo! ♥

p/s: no words can describe my love for u~

Faith Lyrics

Take a walk I'll hold your hands for now
It's happening, it's happening
Makes it hard to lose another night

I'll pretend that I'm a man for now
It's difficult, it's difficult
To soothe a wounded heart

Before you go, give me all of your love
Before you go, I'll give you all of mine

I'll drink water because my blood has dried
It's different, it's different
Than anything you've seen or heard before

Take a picture, hold that smile forever
I'll drink it everyday till it becomes another skin

Before you go, give me all of your love
Before you go, I'll give you all of mine

If it makes it easier
If it makes it easier to breathe

Fading away
Faith is a friend
You make it or break it

Fading away
Faith is a friend
You make it or break it

If it makes it easier
If it makes it easier
Wish it could be easier
I can't breathe
If it makes it easier
If it makes it easier to breathe

Fading away
Faith is a friend
You make it or break it

Fading away
Faith is a friend
You make it or break it

of u, me and all the other revolving things~

i am happy and contented on things that God intended for me. it's His simple way of saying, "there you go Fahmi, this is what you've asked for, and I'M giving it to you." Some people wont probably be agreeing with me on this, but to me, it's the best decision i've made for me to seek happiness.hey,we're not here to please everyone. As long as we're happy and we know it's the right thing to do, we might as well go for it. nothing is certain, it is us, who take the uncertainty and make something out of it.

Follow your heart, because if you always trust your mind, you'll always act on logic, and logic doesn't always lead to happiness..#TLS

p/s: i love u aya~whole-heartedly.

salvation it is~

Ya Allah…. Seandainya telah Engkau catatkan… Dia

milikku tercipta buatku… Satukanlah hatinya dengan

hatiku… Titipkanlah kebahagian antara kami…. Agar

kemesraan itu abadi… Dan Ya ALLAH… Ya Tuhanku Yang

Maha Mengasihi… Seiringkanlah kami melayari hidup

ini… Ketepian yang sejahtera dan abadi… Tetapi Ya

ALLAH… Seandainya telah Engkau takdirkan…. Dia bukan

miliku… Bawalah ia jauh dari pandanganku….

Luputkanlah ia dari ingatanku… Dan peliharalah aku

dari kekecewaan…. Serta Ya ALLAH Ya Tuhanku Yang Maha

Mengerti…. Berikanlah aku kekuatan… Melontar

bayangannya jauh ke dada langit… Hilang bersama senja

nan merah.. Agarku bisa bahagia… Walaupun tanpa

bersama dengannya… Dan Ya ALLAH yang tercinta…

Gantilah yang telah hilang…. Tumbuhkanlah kembali

yang telah patah… Walaupun tidak sama dengan dirinya…

Ya ALLAH Ya Tuhanku… Pasrahkanlah aku dengan

takdirmu… Sesungguhnya apa yang telah Engkau

takdirkan… Adalah yang terbaik buat ku…. Kerana

Engkau Maha Mengetahui… Segala yang terbaik buat

hamba-Mu ini… Ya ALLAH… Cukuplah Engkau saja yang

menjadi pemeliharaku… Di dunia dan di akhirat…

Dengarlah rintihan dari hamba-Mu yang daif ini…

Jangan Engkau biarkan aku sendirian… Di dunia ini

mahupun di akhirat… Menjuruskan aku ke arah

kemaksiatan dan kemungkaran… Maka kurniakanlah aku

seorang pasangan yang beriman… Supaya aku dan dia

sama-sama dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup… Ke jalan

yang Engkau redhai… Dan kurniakanlah padaku keturunan

yang soleh…. Amiiinn Ya Rabbal ‘Alamiinn…

Of funeral and sadness..

this morning came in late to the office, as the German's disappoint the world big time last night. as i went into the office, the situation was rather cheerful. i can see my colleague's gather and having their usual breakfast-gossiping session. so i lepak for a while with them, then straight to my workstation for the daily dosage of work..work..work...but before anyting, i need to stimulate this brain of mine. when on google and began typing randomly.. funeral, came to mind and i change the search tab to images. i dont really know why funeral, but hey, it's random right. immediately google processes the request. and gave me millions and millions of images related to funeral. amongst it was this picture of Boyzone's Stephen Gately funeral:

As shown, Ronan Keating was sadly carrying the coffin beside a member of Gately's family. i dont mean to be same-gender-oriented-ish, but Keating was rather hot-looking when he's sad.it could also mean that his sadness is pure,for a friend. try to youtube the funeral procession, u'll be entertained by Keating's tribute to Stephen.so people out there, love ur friend,ur special friend more and ur family most. im out..love u aya!

the right broom it is~

Basic Principles - no woman wakes up saying "God, I hope I don't get swept off my feet today!" Now, she might say "This is a really bad time for me," or something like "I just need some space," or my personal favorite "I'm really into my career right now." You believe that? Neither does she. You know why? 'Cause she's lying to you, that's why. You understand me? Lying! It's not a bad time for her. She doesn't need any space. And she may be into her career, but what she's really saying is "Uh, get away from me now," or possibly "Try harder, stupid," but which one is it? 60% of all human communication is nonverbal, body language; 30% is your tone, so that means 90% of what you're saying ain't coming out of your mouth. Of course she's going to lie to you! She's a nice person! She doesn't want to hurt your feelings! What else she going to say? She doesn't even know you... yet. Luckily, the fact is that just like the rest of us, even a beautiful woman doesn't know what she wants until she sees it. Basic Principles - no matter what, no matter when, no matter who... any man has a chance to sweep any woman off her feet; he just needs the right broom.

Birds Of the same Feather (Flocks Together)

i dont know what i've been thinking lately. but surely, a simple thought hit me real hard a couple hours ago. i've been mixing around with the wrong crowd. the feeling of belonging and being wanted by others is as instinctively as picking your nose when it itch, but probably because of the insecurity and the past, i always thought that no one could ever like me for my physical appearance. looks play an important role in befriending people..moreover being in a special relationship. kalau muka cute2 dlm facebook then bila live, macam langsuir sunburned dan tak cukup nutrisi. so konklusinya, REJECTED~stamped nicely on my forehead.

so what i need to do now is to fly with the birds of my own feathers..my kind..who can except me for who i am. and when im with them,i wont feel that im the ugliest duckling of all and the disastrous God's gone-wild creation. ok..put your priority straight, concentrate on what's important,GOD AL-MIGHTY,FAMILY and CAREER. good things will come.if it's fated,it'll come. u probably dont have faith in you,but surely faith has faith in u.